Last February 15 to 17, I received a much-needed energizer, a power hug as one of the speakers in the talks of the 15th SFC International Leader’s Conference calls it. I think this is the most fitting entry to start my hopefully active blog life again as I have been unable to post any entry since I came back. It’s not so much because there’s nothing to update but because I was unexpectedly dragged down by my work. Anyone who has been hanging out with me lately knows that it’s the only thing I rant about. It essentially ruined my plans of putting my life at a state where I left it. Because of the numerous issues and attacks specifically directed at me, I was unable to find my heart as a servant.
I guess somehow when I came back, I sort of ‘lost’ whatever it was that made me passionate in serving Him. The work drag definitely didn’t help since my time was primarily spent on dodging bullets and defending my face from crap pie being thrown at me. In short, I didn’t have time to find myself. This occurrence did not really seem to be a problem for me. I mean I know it to be there but I didn’t really pay attention to it. I guess I just felt numb inside…. I felt tired, uninspired and disconnected from that one thing that I truly treasured and that has made a huge difference in my life.
That is until the ILC. It’s funny how God works and reveals his plan. The theme of the conference is SFC@Home. How appropriate is that? The conference was a journey for me that allowed my spirit to find its way home (thus the tears. hehe). It’s an affirmation for me that I AM Home now and should act like it. I was suddenly reminded of how great and humbling it is to offer a portion of one’s life for His greater glory. I am also reminded of my responsibilities as a head and how important my role is to some people depending on it. It’s an assuring realization… a gentle revival… and God gave me the power hug to continue His work.
